Since starting this blog three years ago, I have changed it’s name, established several related sites, and spent numerous hours in heated internal discussions about who I am, what I want to say, why I want to say it, and who I hope is listening.
A cynic might interpret this as evidence that I don’t have a clue who I am really. Or that I have reverted to that childhood place where you can be anything you want when you grow up and whatever you say the adults who love you will smile indulgently.
About six months ago, poetry banged on my door, demanded entry, and began to dictate when I could sleep and eat. Poetry here being a catch-all reference to writing prose in a more poetic style, writing liturgical poetry, prayer, and occasionally applying the form to the more mundane, everyday aspects of my life.
Which leads me to the point that I have created another site, Wrestling with Angels. Why another site? It’s a very reasonable question. Couldn’t I just post these new writings on The Curtain Call?
I certainly could, but what I am writing now is intense, often intimate (not sexually, so don’t call the censors) and touching on spiritual areas such as light and presence, which are scary when they become capitalized. It just felt disrespectful to force prayers or meditations on the meaning of life to live in the same house with the occasional snarky, political or social rant that no doubt will still appear here from time to time.
Then there is the issue of Facebook. I freely admit it is a very good and easy way to keep in touch, particularly in this difficult time of social distancing. It has served me very well as a connection to this site, allowing my friends to read my posts on Facebook. However, it is also a very loud, busy, constantly distracting, time confusing place. It is not a place I want the prayers of my heart to live. I am still in the process of figuring out how to deal with this concern, and any suggestions would be welcome.
If my new site might be meaningful to you, I hope you will follow it, and I especially hope you will add your insights and reactions to whatever I post. Thank you.